Ummm....

Why do I suck at blogging so much lately? Hmm, there must be something new that I can write about.....Maybe I'll write a list of new/interesting things in my life:

1. I did a suicide intervention training, then 4 days later had a conversation with someone was thinking of suicide! Let me tell you, it went nothing like the class and the 90's demonstrative videos in it. Nothing. No worries, the person is perfectly safe and is doing fine. But, my gawd, the irony.


2. Went to a friend's second wedding! Actually, it was more like a second reception for all the folks stuck in Labrador who couldn't make it to the actual event. We got to do lots of socializing, eat good food, watch a wicked slide show and I even got to feel a baby rolling around! Thanks Jen!

3. I'm learning that I am really quite boring. Lame.

4. Oh! But my French class is progressing! For example: Nous somme le 27 janvier. That's right, it's the 27th of January!

That is all for now, please refer to number 3 for reasons why.

Huh?

I'm sorry. Did I mention practicing patience? You must have me confused with the wrong woman. There is no patience available here. Only neurotic. If you need neurotic, I've got you covered.

Today is a beautiful day. Today I walked home from work.

This is something I have not done in a long, long time. In fact, I have not done it from my new workplace, that we moved to in November. What would take just over ten minutes, took me at least 20. But, I'll take it. AND, it was more awkward than it was painful (though, I must say I was happy to get home!). Could it be that the humira has kicked it? Methinks :) I felt a real sense of independence again today. I've been so used to my legs getting me where I need to go, the loss had been hard. But, they got me where I needed to go today.

A beautiful day, indeed :)

Practicing Patience

I don't think I ever would have qualified as a "patient" person. And, that is no more truer than now. When you are trying NOT to get pregnant, you think you ovulate waaaayyyy too often. When you ARE trying to get pregnant, all you can think is, "once a month???? I have to wait a whole month?!?!?!? ARGH!!!!!!"

In better news (and to distract myself), my RA has taken an upswing again today. I must say, I feel alright :) I did have a pretty big flare last week, which I am blaming on the bipolar weather we have been experiencing in Labrador. It really seems as though stopping the mtx has not had too big of an effect on my system, and also that maybe the humira is starting to kick in. I still don't know if I am up for a snowshoe....but I have hope :)

Oh! And, I am starting a conversational beginners French class tonight! I'm finally doing something it!

Okay, I'm glad that I just reminded myself that there is plenty going on in my life, other than trying to have a kid :)

Jumping on the bandwagon

So, as usual I have been trolling through some of my favourite blogs and am noticing a theme. Many folks are doing recaps of their past year. Now, this gave me a realization this morning, as I sit here reading and drinking my (mostly) decaf coffee: perhaps this is an exercise I should also engage in. With my focus (read: obsession) with having a baby, and all of the positive things that will come from that, I forget the amazing things that have happened this past year. Here are some of my highlights:

1. We bought a house!!! I just realized that we moved in a year ago yesterday!!! I love this house dearly, but with my new ankle issues, I'm struggling a little with it being a split-level. But, that was part of the appeal for me, several sections, but each not too far away. Loves ma house.

2. My in-laws came up to Labrador for the first time! We had a great visit, did some hiking, built a deck, ate a lot of bbq, introduced our families, generally an awesome time :)

3. Spent lots of time with great friends. Always essential. Critical, even.

4. I got appointed on the Provincial Advisory Council on the Status of Women. Aside from just being awesome in general, this appointment gives me the opportunity to see my bestest in St. John's. Who has a mini-bestest that I like to poke :)

5. Road-trip!!! In two weeks we covered about 5000 km, 5 provinces, 5 ferries, saw lots of wildlife, ate obscene amounts of seafood, got a flat in the middle of nowhere and I slept in a tent with my cutie :)

6. I stopped mtx!!!! Gimme a high-five! No, don't do that, it'll hurt my wrists. Let's do it mentally. This one makes me supremely happy for a couple of reasons: baby-makin' and no more grossness.

7. Family for Christmas!! My in-laws came again, this time with my brother-in-law and his girlfriend (from Mexico!). It was touch and go whether we would actually get snow for them to play in, but Mother Nature pulled through :) Ski-dooing, hikes, snowshoeing, sliding, it was an exciting time to be at our place :) Nothing better than a full house for Christmas (this is especially awesome when you own a split-level).

8. We decided to have a baby :) AND, being told by an ob/gyn that I am healthy enough to have a baby, despite my RA. That was my all-time fear. That appointment was pretty magical for me :)

I know that waaaayyyy more things have happened over the past year, and I am probably forgetting some pretty important ones. However, this is what is in my head right now. I know I am always wishing time away, and that is not cool. It's good to just live in the present, after all, it is where you are right now. Sometimes, though, it is good to do some reflection, to see where you came from.

Obsessed....

.....with fertility blogs. Or rather, infertility blogs. Totally, completely obsessed. I think I am just preparing myself for the worse. It's been inspirational reading about all of those women who have been trying for sooo long and finally get pregnant, and those that are still struggling with infertility. It is truly amazing how strong women can be. I'm thanking all of those women for being so brave and for sharing their stories. I believe in the power of support and knowing you are not alone.

Oooh, and though this may be tmi for some, I got my period today! That means my cycle is getting pretty much on track after stopping bc. So, I've been bbt-ing it and even have a opk. Not wasting any time over here. And I may also be having fun with acronyms :)

One of my favourite blogs, thus far:
www.999reasonstolaughatinfertility.blogspot.com

Quiet house

After a wonderful, fun and food-filled week and a half with family, we are all alone again :( It's amazing how quickly time goes. One minute it's Christmas Eve and folks are just arriving, the next they are leaving, and work is looming. I don't want the season to end. It was pretty special sharing Christmas in Labrador with family from the south :) Fortunately we got totally dumped on by snow, and it dipped down to some frigid temperatures (-28 C with the windchill). Why come to Labrador if you can't experience some true cold?? Just to be noted, it definitely gets colder :) I got to eat some good Mexican food, made by a Mexican, some good Quebecois food made by a Quebecois, and lots of good Labrador food made by Labradorians (Including me! I actually cooked!!). Oh, and chocolate. Lots and lots of chocolate.

Now, I am off to search for some good basal body temp charts on-line that suit me. Yup, that's right! The time is upon us as I am officially taking my last bc pill tonight :D :D :D I'm feeling apprehensive and ecstatic at the same time. I currently have three friends pregnant (three!). In my usual over-thinking way, my first thought is, "uh-oh. There is no way that we'd all be pregnant at the same time. Things just don't work that way. I'm not that lucky." Another part of me is all, "Of course I'm going to get pregnant asap! We'll all be pregnant together and it will be wonderful!" Though I don't normally make resolutions, I am determined to remain positive throughout it all, even if it takes a while. Plus, I have no choice. For the first couple of months Dom is going to be doing quite a bit of travelling, so good luck to us at actually being in the same place when I am ovulating. Fingers-crossed :)