Wednesday, January 4, 2012

New Year's Resolution

As I posted on my facebook recently, my new year's resolution is to lose as few body parts as possible.  It's good solid advice.  I mean, we all need as many body parts as we can keep, am I right??  Alas, I said that I wanted to lose as few as possible, not lose no body parts.  For you see, I learned on December 28th, that I am in pretty desperate need of a hip replacement.  Not that I didn't know some kind of intervention was coming, the crutches and wheelchair were clues.  I just kind of thought that they might need to go in and "clean" things up a little.  I don't know if I was being naive or something, but when the doctor told me, I was shocked.  It seems silly to think back to my feelings, obviously there is some serious crap going on in there.  I can't walk or get in and out of bed by myself.  I can't really remember the last time I put on my own socks (I need some new gadgets). 

So, I probably will lose the top of my femoral head, but it's all for a greater good, right??  I know that down the road I will feel soooo much better than I do right now.  But, where I am right now is wishing I didn't have to be in need of this in the first place.  Thinking about those first couple of incredibly painful days, basically re-learning how to walk and months of rehabilitation, still not being able to put my socks on for a period of time (what I wouldn't do for some independence!!), the threat of infection (got first hand experience), and the not being able to go back.  Go back to all of my own body parts, to not having yet again some foreign object in my body.  There's a level of distrust in my own body.

Sorry this post is a little bit of a downer!  I am a bit excited, really.  I can't wait to be able to get around without aids, to go outside for a walk with my fella and pup, and to put on my own darn socks!  I know the outcome will be good, I just know that the road to get there will be tough.


  1. Happy New Year Pony. Wow! Some kind of holiday news, huh? Hang in there. This could be a great thing. Feel excited and see yourself doing all that you want to do. It will happen.

  2. This is a great resolution! This was mine back in 2010 and I am happy to say it was the best resolution ever.

    Putting on my own socks was definitely a sub-resolution and now I can take that for granted like everyone else (if I wanted to, that is).

  3. Hey Pony,

    I am sorry things have gotten to this point. But as they have, I will wish you a most stellar 2012, and here's seeing you with a new hip and able to do ALL the things you want to!!!

    Wishing you the best, now and always!

    :) L

  4. And maybe you will be able to celebrate 2013 with a dance or two on that new hip. I know how hard the thought of it all can be but since it is a no choice kinda thing, you might as well look as the glass as half full. Did I hear you say...fill her up with some champagne? Hoping all goes well for you with the surgery and that you will be posting to let us know you are on your way to recovery.

  5. Pony, you will do GREAT. I know it must be so scary, i'd be totally terrified. But just think - no more horrible hip pain. I know 2 people who have had their hips replaced (in early 20s) and they're up and about and getting on with life as I know you will be too :) Chin up, we're all with you!

  6. Happy Birthday Pony!! Hope you had an amazing day.