Ever get tired and tired of waiting for something that just doesn't appear as though it will happen? Well, of course everyone feels like that sometimes, and trust me, I am feeling like that right now. You see, my sweetie and I have been trying to have a baby for over 10 months now. I know it's not a ridiculous amount of time, but it is kinda long. The first few months were brutal and heart-wrenching (I don't have much patience), but then I settled into it. I decided to live and love and appreciate my life as it is right now, minus a baby. This whole summer was great, interspersed with some sadness and tears and anger whenever my period started. But, that sadness never lasted long. And, for the record, trying to make a baby is fun :)
I'm still pretty calm and collected about it, I know it will happen when it's supposed to happen. But, right now, I am annoyed. Yup, freakin' annoyed. C'mon body, you've treated me like crap for the past 10 years, can't ya just give a little??
Now, not to worry :) For the most part, my life is still sunshine and rainbows. I'm not even remotely bitter about it, and still get completely blissed out about others pregnancies (Nadine, I am looking at you! I wanna touch your growing belly!). I love my hubby more than ever, I've got an amazing group of friends, and there have been some cool happenings in my little town. I think about my goals and dreams for me, not just for me as a future mom.
I guess I just needed to put it down on screen. I feel better :)