Ever get tired and tired of waiting for something that just doesn't appear as though it will happen? Well, of course everyone feels like that sometimes, and trust me, I am feeling like that right now. You see, my sweetie and I have been trying to have a baby for over 10 months now. I know it's not a ridiculous amount of time, but it is kinda long. The first few months were brutal and heart-wrenching (I don't have much patience), but then I settled into it. I decided to live and love and appreciate my life as it is right now, minus a baby. This whole summer was great, interspersed with some sadness and tears and anger whenever my period started. But, that sadness never lasted long. And, for the record, trying to make a baby is fun :)
I'm still pretty calm and collected about it, I know it will happen when it's supposed to happen. But, right now, I am annoyed. Yup, freakin' annoyed. C'mon body, you've treated me like crap for the past 10 years, can't ya just give a little??
Now, not to worry :) For the most part, my life is still sunshine and rainbows. I'm not even remotely bitter about it, and still get completely blissed out about others pregnancies (Nadine, I am looking at you! I wanna touch your growing belly!). I love my hubby more than ever, I've got an amazing group of friends, and there have been some cool happenings in my little town. I think about my goals and dreams for me, not just for me as a future mom.
I guess I just needed to put it down on screen. I feel better :)
Aw I can't imagine what you must be going through, sounds really frustrating. I guess sometimes these things happen when you stop expecting them to and relax? Easier said than done though! Are you off all your meds? Eek.
ReplyDelete*big squishy hug* I know someday soon you'll have your own little Jellyfish/Bean/Nugget/Osbert to fawn over. I can't wait to see YOUR growing belly!!!
ReplyDeleteAnd you'll be able to snuddle it on the beddle-coodle-boo!! :D
ReplyDeleteThanks ladies :)
ReplyDeleteHey Squirrel, I'm not off all my meds, fortunately. At least my RA doesn't have to suffer through nearly a year of no meds! I think I would be bed-bound without any meds :(
Nadine! Eeeeee! I can't believe you remembered that :D Yay! Love you, girl :)
Hi Pony, sorry it is taking so long for the baby, but it will come. I am glad you have so many other wonderful things happening as you wait! My husband and I used to spend some of our days off watching movies all day and eating take out. After babies came and it was difficult to sit through a thirty minute sitcom or eat a meal while it was hot, I was so glad we had that time together. Enjoy!
ReplyDeleteAwww... i just want to hug you! You know what they say, relax about it and before you know it you'll be puking over the throne! I know right, the visual but if it works, it works. Hugs to you. Tammy
ReplyDeleteThanks Cathy :) I always remind myself of the good things, like being incredibly lazy, having movie-fests, ect. I gotta live that up while I can!
ReplyDeleteHey Tammy! Totally true, I should enjoy my stomach while it's healthy and all mine :) Thanks!
As an active and engaged dad, I echo the above comments. Enjoy your time with Dom and take advantage of the time you have with each other. Amy and I had to wait almost 10 years for Addy. On some levels it hurt having to wait that long. On other levels, such as having time for each other and financial stability it helped. Enjoy life, relax, and it will happen for you guys. If not I will loan Addy out to you guys for a week or two every year.
ReplyDeleteWow, Mike, that's a long time to wait! Worth every minute once she came, I bet :) Thanks for the loan, I may take you up on it ;)
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